Psalm 13

How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me?
How long must I wrestly with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?
Look on me and answer, O Lord my God.
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death; my enemy will say "I have overcome her," and my foes will rejoice when I fall.
But I TRUST IN YOUR UNFAILING LOVE; my heart rejoices in your salvation.
I will sing to the Lord, fo he has been good to me.

Translation in my mind:
Where are you, God? You've forgotten me - will you never remember me? How long are you going to be absent when I need you? How long are these days going to last - it always seems like he's winning and I can't keep this up forever.
Look at me! I'm over here! I've been crying out to you for so long, please answer me, God, give me some kind of sign that you're up there!! Sometimes these times are so dark, I just want to give in - if you don't give me direction and hope, I will just give up and he will win - do you really want him to win? He will be so happy when he's won this fight and beat me down for the final time.
But, I will make a choice to trust you. I will make a choice to look for your hand in my life and I choose to believe that you love me and someway, some how, you're going to come through and save me. I will rejoice in the knowledge that you ARE there and you have been good to me in the past - today I choose to believe you have not abandoned me.